Fitting IN

God why is it so hard for me to just learn to be content in what you are and what you do for me? And no worry about fitting in withothers? God I just want to be with you, you alone can satisfy me, No man or thing in this world is what satisfies me, Father just help me to know that no matter where I am who i am with You are always standing near me, and that you care for me and love me unconditionally!I long to just be loved and accepted and right now I think that only you can do that, Forgive me for letting my selfish ambitions get in the way and for always wanting what I want, My desires are left in your hands, Father what ever you will, I want, Father just help me to lean on you and not just when things are bad but every day of my life, I know your teaching me things and showing me what I need to sacrifice and what I need to do change! Forgive me for not putting my full trust in you! God you are worthy and I can't even imagine my life with out you, I am so happy to have a Father and God like you, You are more then enough, thank you for always hearing me and answering my prayers, and taking care of me, Thank yous aren't even enough to begin to show my appreciation for you! I just want you and I am desperate for your, I am lost with out, I am seriously besides myself, I don't know what I would do if i never asked you in my life! thanks for always being there!

Sacrifices

Lord is this what you felt like when you sacrificed yourself for me and others? Because its hurting me so badly, Why does this hurt so much? What is your trying to do in me? I just want to be one with you, i want to have a heart more like yours, I don't want to focus on the things around me that is taking me from you, I want to live for you, i want to remain in your arms and under your will, I don't want the things of this world to take from me what you have instilled in me, I want to know that my desires you have instilled in me are in your care, I don't want to deal with it anymore, i want to hand it over to you, Knowing that you know what your doing, HELP ME TO TRUST!!! not only you, but others, I want that so bad, I want my friendships to feel secure and not have anything to worry about. I want to know that those you put in my life are there as an encourager and not a downer I want to be free from this, I don't want to focus on the things I can't control, i want to hand them over to you, i want my life to be a reflection of who you are and what your doing in my life. I want to show others that I can give things over for you, that I can have my whole heart open to you, and that your will for me is good, that My will isn't for me, but its what you have in store for me, I want to feel peaceful and have a sense of joy and happiness! i want to be fully dependant on your love and mercy for me! i love that your always there, when I HAVE NO ONE ELSE that I can always turn to you! and you haven't left me for one sec!

The power of Your love, by Misty Edwards

God you are Great

How Great are you Oh Father, God Your greater then the earthly things, your greater then the materialistic things, I give you all of me and I am not holding nothing back, I love your faithfulness towards me and I love that you love me unconditionally, your definately worthy of my praise, I can't contain the love i have for you, I can't even begin to express how Much I love you. I can't even fathom the multitude of your love for me, Your name is Majestic, Your name is Jehovah Jireh, my provider, Your my protector my lover, My best friend, Your worthy of all i am, I am so thankful that you take me as I am, I am so thankful that you are working on me and beginning a new change in me, Your surrounding me even now, I am so thankful for being able to just sit at your throne and just bask in your presence, I just want to stay here, I don't want to move, I just want to look in those beautiful eyes and hear that heart beat, I just want to be poured out on, GOD i just want you and nothing else, I just want a dumping of a heaping of your annointing I don't know what your doing in me, BUT its like i just feel content, I don't want to be content I want to be more then content i want all and more and more, Father, Set me on fire, set my heart ablaze for you!

Arms Wide Open - Misty Edwards

Jesus Culture Consumed - Oh Lord You´re Beautiful

Misty Edwards - You won't relent

"my soul longs for you" misty edwards

Emotions

So Today My emotions got the best of me, But in the middle of my feelings i did apologize i listened to your voice and backed down, I am sorry Father for not showing you and allowing my anger and frustration seep through, But thank you in all that you spoke to me to say I am sorry and to know that right away to check my spirit with you, Lord I don't want to ever let that happen again, I know that there are things that are going to trigger my emotions, GOD i need your help in controling that, I give it to you, I open my hands and wave it into the air and i leave it with you, Thank You Father for a great day with our friends, and Micah, I know that it was not to what I wanted, but it was perfect i guess for me, GIve me strength tomorrow, help me to sleep tonight, Protect us, Send down your guardian angels to protect us, and watch over us, And to also watch over dale and keep him safe, I pray Father that tomorrow will be full of new mercies and grace, Thanks for always giving me 2nd chances and for forgiven me where I feel inadequate or feel like I am the only one at times that makes mistakes, I love you. Be with my friendships in my life, Be with my conversations with people, Let my words be of encouragement and love, and not gossip. I love you!

Motherhood

God thank you for giving me Micah, I know there are times where things are challenging but I love him, lately its been hard, I feel as though I am failing him, I feel as though I am screaming for help and encouragement and the only person that hears me is you, I don't like feeling like i am the one who is needing to be fixed, But I know that in order for there to be peace and serenity, it needs to happen, So Father i know you entrusted him in my care, i know you wouldn't give me something I can't handle, So father through these trying years I ask Father that you would just equip me with the right tools and things I need to do, to become a better Mother, I know its in me to do that, When he has down days i want to shut myself off from him, I want to just push him away, But I know that is not what you want from me, I know I make mistakes and I am not perfect, I know that if every mistake you would do that, I wouldn't be able to function or exist, So GOD please I ask and pray that you would just help me to not do that, And when he makes mistakes help me to love him through that, and Just be there to help guide and instruct him with love and just show him you, I am sorry for hurting him, I am sorry for allowing my flesh and physical aspect get in the way of the love you want me to have for him, I pray Father you would just give me this ultimate peace to be the Mother you have called me to be, I know that I can, give me the courage and the strength to get through this..I want my heart to be open and willing to do any changing that needs to take place! Forgive me father for allowing my selfishness to get in the way, for allowing my desires and not yours for me, Help me GOD to learn to lean and trust in you all the days of my life and I want to hand my control back to you! Thank You GOD for listening and loving me, and not pushing me away but loving me even more!

Strength and Shield

Father I love you, You lift me up higher then anything, When I feel like I can't go on in this world you are right there along side of me saying Daughter because of me you can do this, So I am so thankful for your encouraging words and that you are there right beside me holding me up and picking me up when I fall down, I am so thankful for you, I am so thankful that I have a great friend in you, When all of my other ones are busy, your just the one I want and need to chat with, You God alone are more then enough, You are my shield and my protector, You protect me from the enemy and I can count on you, you always know what to say, know how to help me, You are my rescue, you are my healer, You are my confidant, you are my best friend, you are my everything, you are more then enough, Day by day things may not always go according to what I want but you always are there and always are there helping me and showing me things, and leading me, You haven't left, I am so honored and full of passion for you, When all of my other friends desert me you, You are there, I can always count on you, YOu are my all in all, I don't lack anything when your on my side, I am so grateful for a Father who watches out for her daughter, And I am so so thankful for you!

Drained

Lord Why am I so drained, are you trying to prepare me for something awesome? I want to just be your vessel and your tool to minister to others, and i want to be a blessing to many that need you and a friend, I am sorry for letting my flesh get in the way of what you want for me and the ones I come in contact with. Lord show me things in a whole new way, I just want to see you and your works and your face, I just want to be closer to you, I want to be able to breathe your air and hear your voice, I just want to bask in your grace and mercy, For I know they are new every morning, I know today is gone, BUt your grace and mercy have refreshed as the new day approaches, I thank you Father for another day, I am sorry Father for anything i may have done to not bring Glory to your wonderful and awesome name, I know when I hear your voice or enter in your presence I know everything is going to be ok, and there is a peace that is just so overwhelming and just knowing that your with me wherever i go, Your there, Your preparing a way for me, and your going to the beyond my beyond to meet me and to meet my expectations even before I ask of them i am just so blessed to be hidden in your arms and under your protection, Your my joy my happiness, I am so Blessed to have a an awesome GOD and Husband, and Daddy like you, Your Name silences those that need to be silenced, Your my sustance, my all in all, my ever present help in time of need, I am so thank ful that you rescued me and you set me free from my chains that you fought the devil and broke me free from him, I love you and that you also are watching over dale and Micah as well, your such a great protector of them. And I know that this future child will to be in your loving arms, i am receiving my healing and that you will be glorified once again, That you will show up and people will see that yes even me i can heal you, and that When asked if GOD listens the answer is yes, Because i know you hear me and you have my best interests and desires at heart, I love you!

You are Holy

Jesus You are Holy, Your Lord, I can't even express my heart adn my soul to you, Its never enough, But GOD your more then enough for me, I just want to embrace you with all of my being and never let go, I thank you Lord for you divine healing, Your my Healer and My Father, My daddy, My prize that I can't wait to look forward to. You lift me up where I need to be, Your teaching me and showing me things and your taking me on a whole new level in you, You are my reason to get up, Your my reason to breathe, Your name is higher the heavens!You created my inmost being you created me to worship you, i want nothing more then to do that, SO GOD equip my voice Father, I know that is one of my gifts that you have instilled in me, I know that its in there, Just help it to where it can grow, I know that your equipping me even now, I thank you Father for your teachings and for your little lessons and just showing me how to love and trust again, I pray GOD that thru everything that you will just protect me from others who try to hurt me, Or try to take advantage of me, But through it all I will have a place to run to, And that is you, I want to run into your arms and just hide and feel secure and safe, I want nothing but to hear your heart beat, I want to just get lost in your presence, I want to forever stay and never leave, Your my strong tower, My refuge, A place i can run into and feel safe, I seek your face and I just want to see you, I want a heart like yours, GOD just intergrate yourself into me, and Just do away with all the yuckies and just give me peace on certain situations, Your my dream and I love to worship you. Thanks for all you've done and going to do, Thanks for going to the beyond beyond my expectation and fulfilled every desire. I love you!

Prayer

Lord I just want to pray for you, I want my prayers to be lifted to the Heavens and you would just open up the skies and just dump your grace and anointing on me, I know that your hiding me for a purpose,I know I have a purpose in you, I am your Daughter and i am forever yours, I receive you GOD as my Healer, my conqueror, My friend, My Best friend, I am redeemed thru your Blood, I am Your chosen, I am your Princess, I know You love me, I love that you watch out for me, I want nothing more but to be close to you, I want nothing more then to feel your arms wrap around me, My identity is in you, My countence belongs to you, I give you all that i am, i have a burning desire to pray, i just need to have you guide me in what it is you want, i want to know and do the things for what you called me to do, I want to be used for your glory, I want to be open and receipent to what it is you want to do in my life, My heart is all yours, i want to be willing to be open and willing to be obedient to what you called me to be, i have an identity in you, You are more then enough for me, You are my sustance, i my strength, when I feel like I can't go on, Your there to lift me up, your there to show me and guide me in ways I can't understand, You are my Savior, My GOD my all in all, my rescuer, My knight and shining armor, I thank you for the blessings you put in my life, I thank you for the friends and people you have put in my life, to speak life into me, I thank you for always being there and showing me that I am not alone, That I have one true friend and that is you, I want more and more of you, I don't want to lack anything, I want all it is you want me to have, My Heart and Soul cry out for more and more, i am sorry i was off for a while but GOD you can restore what was lost and Your my refresher, Your my GPS guide when i feel I can't find my way, You seem to always know exactly how to help me get back to you. Thank YOu Father for always being there and helping me understand that not everything will be the way i want it, but You are in control of my life.
I praise you Jesus for you are my friend and my Best friend, and when men fail, Your always there on the sidelines waiting patiently for me to come back to you! I thank you for that!

I AM HIS CHOSEN ONE

Father Your my passion, I know that i have lost it for awhile, BUT GOD you have brought me back to you, you never ever ever leave me, Your always there when no one else is, When I feel betrayed or lonely or just feeling like all my friends are gone, Your the one that stays around for the long haul and I don't have to worry and be anxious for nothing, GOD you are my healing and my healer, I ask GOD that you would just heal my heart, that you will just open it up with just love and aderation for others and just love them like you do, and not worrying about what people think, Father your the one I want I am so sorry i let others or things get in the way of that, I just want to be loved on by you, I want you to just take me into your arms and just love me and just wrap yourself around me, and just engulf me in your love and your arms, I want to be in your presence I don't want it to end, Your my GOD and I just want you, I don't want anyone else, I want you and only you, This path i was on GOD i don't know why i was going down that way, BUT you can take me and fill me and use me to your glory, Lord shine your glory and light in my soul and pierce the darkness and let me feel free and i pray that the chains will start to fall off one by one and that your Light will forever take place of what once was darkness but now its going to a freedom for me. I will serve you, I don't want to think about my past, I just want to move onward and just want to go forward in you!

William McDowell - I Give Myself Away