How Long?

How long am I going to be barren? How much longer am I going to have to wait for that miracle once again? My heart longs for another baby, and all I want is to give a sibling to my son, How much longer am I going to have this longing for one? God I need you more and more, i long to know what your plans are for me, I know that you have my best interest at heart, and you know the desires of my heart, and you know me inside and out, and you love me, and you long for me,

I love you Father, You are so incredible to me, I just want to know WILL I EVER CONCIEVE AGAIN? cuz if not take this desire from me? and put me at rest and peace, But if not, God just give me a peace that passes all understanding, I know God that you are going to do some awesome things, I know people tell me its all in your timing, but those are the ones that have no problems getting pregnant, so they honestly can't seem to understand what I am going through let alone hurt and long for another baby, GOD what must I do?


What are you doing to me, what is that you want from me? what is that you need me to do?/ to get that baby you promised me.....You say your promises are yes and amen... I know i need to totally rely on and trust you and have faith that you know what your doing, Its just hard because I see all these ladies who aren't married getting pregnant and either killing them, or putting them up, or there are some married women who pop them out left adn right and here I am struggling and even considering giving it up. SO WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? What do you want me to do? I just need to know?

Thank for the son you have given me, he is my world besides you and Dale, but I love him, I know I am not perfect when it comes to raising him, but i atleast care and love him and take what he says to heart. Just show me what I need to do differently and how to be a better parent...

I am asking and trusting and putting my whole faith in you. Thank You for providing for us, and taking good care of us. and for always knowing before we even ask what to say or do for us. so thanks. I know everything is in your hands and you have everything under control...


Is that it? you want me to give CONTROL OVER to you? because i will do that, I don't want to think about or even worry about this anymore, ITS IN YOUR HANDS.. i give it to you and I DON"T WANT TO PICK IT BACK UP!!!! I praise you Father for you are truly amazing and my healer and my establisher. thank you God for always having our best interests at heart. I WILL GET PREGNANT AGAIN, i am standing on your promise and your word, I am going to put my Faith and Trust in you.

Patiently waiting

Ok I am patiently waiting, to just sit here and know what you want, and as I am just sitting here and you calmly tell me to BE STILL MY LITTLE ONE, I AM GOING TO GET YOU THROUGH THIS, You are going to be ok, i know things are not as they seem but you My Child are what I have called a lover and a friend..


I am his daughter and he is Father, and with out you I can do nothing, I know you will never leave me nor forsake me, God I know you have my plans and my future all in your hand, I give everything over to you, You are a faithful friend and Father. So as i am on this Path i pray that you will guide and direct me, and just show me what to do and which way to go, I just need you to be in my Center Focus and just enlighten me with your presence, I want you to just surround me and just envelope me and just show me the way and the path and direction you are taking me, I am excited but yet nervous as to what is going to take place in my Future that you are so graciously planning for me


You Father I am going to start to put my faith and trust in more, so when i feel a sense of doubt i will stand up over it and say I do trust and I do have faith and i do know you love me and that you care and just want whats best for me,

Thank You Father God that I can turn to you and just weep and cry and be angry but yet be free to do that and not have a care or worry in the world. I love you Jesus, you are my healer and savior and best friend, i don't know where I would be with out you.

Its Time

Its time that we all are on alert, God isn't messing around with us anymore, either we give him all of us or not at all, he is looking for a pure and clean bride, He doesn't want to come back to a church that isn't' ready, either your ready or not, but he isn't going to be waiting for ever..

We are to reach out to those that haven't seen him or have even invited him in there lives we need to be fishing for his people and searching for those that need a savior. God i want to be one of those that is fishing God send me use me guide me direct me, I am not going to fight this battle alone, and I know we are at a war right now, and only you God can save us..

You are night and shining armor, you are our protector, you are the one who can do all things.. you are the one who can show us how to fight with your word. We are going to be prepared because you are our Teacher and our comforter....Right now we need you, Jesus You are more then enough, God we want you, I know there are some who think they can do with out you, But I am not one of those. You are what keeps me going, you are the one who gives me patience with things in my day and my life, You are the one who helps me be a great mother and wife. Jesus, Forgive things that I have done that hasn't brought Glory to you, Forgive me for allowing things in my life to take the place of you. I just want more and more of you..

Use me, Guide ME direct me, and just be My GPS system. I love you Jesus. You are the way the truth and the life.

I honor and adore you and you only. thank you for my family and my job my house my van a great husband that loves you and me, and for our son who is the JOY of my life, its all because of you i can get up and be his mother. thank you
I love you!!!!

NO Matter what

No matter what God i will follow you, i know i have been dry and thirst for far to long now, and i desire to know you, I desire to run after you with all my heart and soul and mind, I want to chase after you, You are all I need. I know things got off course but once again God you are going to turn that around, You know every thing, you know every thought and every desire and every wants and needs in my life..

I know God I am not perfect, But Lord you have given me many trials and i have tended to not trust you, I am as of today handing over the reigns to you and giving you complete control once again, i no longer want to go at this battle alone, i believe God you were waiting for me to say i need you and releasing things back to you once again. So God that is what I am doing today, Just teach me Father, show me your ways are better then mine..

I just want to be your servant, I just want to show my love and adoration to you. I give up God, I give up on everything, I know there are things that I can't control, but you can, I know you have every best interest in my life at heart, and you know the plans for my life, I know you would never put me in a position to harm or hurt me, everything you do for me its for your Glory and Victory, YOU ARE MY VINDICATER, I am glad to be called and chosen for you. It brings me great joy to just offer my love and sacrifices up to you and just to stop and be in your presence. You are Graceful and worthy of everything that you are and everything that you do. You do out of Love and Protection. I love you King Jesus, Daddy God, you are more way more then enough! THank you for always knowing whats best for me!

Kerrie Roberts- No Matter What **With Lyrics**

Break the Chains (worship video w/ lyrics)

Dry season

God I don't know what you are doing to me, and I don't quite understand, But you do, You are in control, I just want what you have for me, I don't know what you are doing or what is in store for me, But you are GOD and you can do all things.

I know I am going through another season, but I don't quite know why, what is the reason behind it, Why is it that I feel as though i am struggling to just be able to sense you. Show me Father, I don't want to feel distant from you, I don't want to be away from you,

I want to know I can be around you, I want to feel your arms draped around me, I want to hear your voice, I want to touch you, I want to just know that I am not alone, You God are who I want to serve,

No matter what the enemy may throw my way I know you are on my side, I know that I can trust you and that my faith is always in you. I know you have my best interests at heart.

God forgive me for not laying every thing down at your feet. I am sorry for not giving you complete control of my life, I am sorry for letting the world get to me, I am sorry for letting my flesh in, and not letting you have the best of me,

I love you Jesus, I just want to be yours I just want to know that your love is unending, God just engulf me in your grace. Give me patience when I don't have it, Help me to be a better mother and wife. Just lead me into your understanding. I praise you! Thank You Jesus, I love you!

My heart is thirsty for more of you

Father I know you are polishing me, I know you set me and Dale apart for your purpose and time to bring us out, God I love you, I just want you to do what ever it is you want us to do for you Kingdom, I have run the good race and fought the good battle you have placed before us. You are worthy of all praise! I can't fathom my life with out your love and kindness, You are the one I will and want to serve. I am humbling myself to you, That you just continue to prune me and get me set apart for your timing and purpose,

I pray God that you just show Dale the same vision that i see you have for us, I know he thinks differently then i do but God you are getting us ready, I am so so excited for what you have prepared for us. I am so excited that you are going to use us, me and him as a team and you are preparing us in unity with not only each other but with you.

You have set us apart and you taken us on this journey that you are taking us through and on, for a special purpose. I just can't explain my heart but you understand it, GOd you are amazing, I am so happy to be called your friend and your daughter. you are most amazing. Jesus you are worthy, you are magnificent, you are holy you are all i am and more. I love you, You are my best friend, God I just want more and more and more of you. Just use us, and continue to just be the God of all the area in my life, and if there is anything that needs to be pruned away i just pray God that you just show me.

For I know

For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, plans not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29;11

God that is my sure foundation I stand on that promise and claim my Victory in you. You oh God I do trust in you, I thank you Father that you know every thought every hurt every pain, but God you know what our dreams and desires are.

I thank you that you promised us a future, As long as you are in my future i don't care what else we do. I just want to know that you are there and going with us through it all.

I thank you for always knowing whats best for us, always knowing what our needs are before we come to you and asking you for them. I love the fact that you stand by us and guide us and coach us through our battles and our journeys. you oh Father are in and through every aspect of it.

Worthy is your name oh Father, YOu are magnificent, You reign supreme, You are my Rock my redeemer my lover, my best friend, one whom I can talk to, the one who guides me, i am not afraid when you are near me, and with me, You are my savior in all my aspect of my life.

I lay myself down each day to just be near you. God just work through and in me, to be the better person and daughter you want me to be.I love you Jesus!

If You Say Go by Rita Springer ~ Greenbergs Move to Africa

Surrender my all

Father God I surrender my all to you, I give up, I am tired of running this race alone, I am tired of letting the worldly things hinder my walk with you, I am tired of running on my own ambition, i am tired of going on my way, I want your way. I am so sorry for thinking i can do this with out you, Its because of you i can walk this walk and run this race you have set up before me.

I want nothing more but to just wrap myself into you. You Oh God are my life, I surrender everything i have to you. I am just done. I am done fighting with out you. Like your word says, I have run the race, i have fought the good fight. I just need you more and more, I am so tired of this fleshy feeling i am having. i want to step into my new life through you, I want to continue to die with self. You oh God can do the impossible.

Just envelope me, and get me to where you need me to be. Our ministry is in your hands oh God my father, I know you have a special place for us, i know you are getting things ready and set. I just pray that you continue to just prepare our hearts, if this church is the one we are to minister in then i pray that all the doors stay open. I know its a big leap, but God when your in it, It doesn't matter where we are as long as your my Guide and I know i can put my total faith and trust in you. I thank you in advance for what you are doing in our lives and getting us prepared. I love you Jesus!