The Light of Jesus will pierce the Darkness

I am sitting  here reading God's word and a lot of what I am reading is lining  up with what's going on around us. I didn't know how to blog or write this, but I chose to say The Light of Jesus will pierce the darkness. You read many times in the bible the light and how God will pierce through the darkness. We as a nation are surrounded by it, WE don't have to be. WE as Christians need to stand up and pray and intercede, the enemy is trying SO hard to rear his ugly head, but I know the truth, I k now that in the end he's lost and already has, God has already defeated him. I was reading today, that we can't be listening to false preachings and those who are trying to say other things that AREN'T God breathed. We need to be alert and aware even more then before. Now is the time to stand up and take back what is rightfully ours and that is God's inheritance WE are God's INHERITANCE. So many times we have forgotten that and have allowed the worldly things get in our way of that. We need to not be complacent with this world. I have said it before and I am going to say it again, THIS WORLD IS NOT OUR HOME. We are just visitors and we need to focus on the real purpose we are here. I must admit my flesh has been getting in the way of the real reason I am here. I am here to serve my Father and to teach my son that same thing. But the thing with him is HE already knew that. I was in Aldi's the other day with his father doing our grocery shopping and we were talking about how much things are and he brought up the subject you can't sell me, I SAID UH NOPE, You are priceless. He said that no one will buy me, he said that Jesus already has, or something like he is already Jesus's. You have no idea on how that warms me up inside to hear my son say that He belongs to Jesus. That right there is what God wants to hear from us. He wants to hear his children say that, he wants to hear us say that and not be ashamed or foolish. Heck yes I will admitt, I am not perfect I sometimes feel stupid for saying stuff like that, But My son isn't ashamed or to proud to say it. HE KNOWS where he came from. That is God's inheritance. God just wants us to show him that we aren't to proud to proclaim him and love him. I was reminded in a prayer group that GOD IS A JEALOUS GOD, He wants more and more and more of us, He wants us to stop letting things get in the way of his love and wants us to spend time with him. I figure if he can give us free will, I will CHOOSE him. WHY wouldn't I? AFTER all he's done for me and my family, I can't think of a better way to say thank you. He wants us to show him that we really really want him, HE wants his bride all for himself. He isn't all about sharing, we have allowed the things of this world take the place of his love and his time. WE need to always be praying, interceding and spending time with him. He longs for us, he wants that. He doesn't want us to wander off and let things that aren't good for us to invade his territory ;) No but in all reality He just wants us. He accepted us with ALL flaws, He's not going to say, nope sorry your broken, nope you have issues. NO HE already took care of that the day his son went to the cross. YES we are human, but God is always working in each of us if we just let him. I am not going to lie, IT'S not going to easy, but then did he ever say it would be? WHO ARE YOU GOING TO SERVE? MAN OR GOD? I am proclaiming right now I AM GOING TO SERVE GOD. Because I know where I am going to spend the rest of my life after this life is done.

Accountablility

As I was taking my soon to be nine year old to school this morning, I had asked him if he had his shoes in his bag, We live in Iowa and got snow and he was all bundled up. He had his boots. He then informed me that no he didn't put his shoes in his bag, I had him get Everything rounded up and ready for school the night before. I told him that it's his responsibility to remember that. Well it makes me think the same thing as Christians. It's no one's responsibility but ours to read the word of GOD and to get to know him more and more, it's our responsibility to walk a Godly life and to not be complacement with the world. I have realized that I have for the longest time that I cared about what others thought if I witnessed a certain way, or if I was even making an impact on people. My whole goal is to please my GOD and if I am not then it's my responsibility to make sure I am. I can have accountability partners but they can't always make sure I am doing what I am supposed to do. I need to make sure I am the one who is doing what God has called me to do. I want to be a GOD changer and chaser, I don't want to sit back and just watch someone else get the blessing when I can be doing something about it. I want to change the world, I want to see lives changed. Sitting by and letting someone else isn't my way of changing it. I want to teach my son that it's ok to be different and that GOD loves us the way we are. I learned something recently that there is only one me, and that there are things that others can do that I can't or wasn't meant to do, and vice versa. My identity is in GOD and GOD alone. He knew what he was doing when he formed me. Psalm 139:13 says that he formed me in my mother's womb before she even knew I was in existance and he knew me before she did. That verse will get me every time, because he had me created for a reason. I have a purpose on earth and my purpose is to work for him and to change lives for him. I am responsible for myself, but I am mainly responsible and held accountable for what I do here on earth. When I am not doing what I was called to do, then I know that I need to change and do what I was supposed to do.

It's time to wake up.

It's New Years and I promised God that I would spend more time with him and read what he wants me to see. Today as I was reading the word, I normally read a Proverbs a day and then either the New Testament or Old Testament, I decided to read Isaiah and it's pretty much saying the exact same thing as my Proverb of the day. People it's time to wake up and stop being lazy. God isn't playing anymore, we have gone on long enough not doing what we were called here on this planet to do. That is to win his souls, People we are on borrowed time, WE need to stop messing around and stop thinking that we don't have what it takes to stand up and take back what is rightfully ours. God isn't impressed with how we have just laid back and let the enemy win. If I remember correctly, HE HAS and WILL be defeated. SO why are we just letting him win? Why are we so afraid? Because in the word it says multiple times that there is no fear when you are in God, God is our refuge, our strength is in him. We are to ride up on wings like an eagle. We aren't to be complacent in this world, this world isn't our home and it's like we as christians have given up. WE NEED TO STOP LETTING THE DEVIL WIN. We need to take back what he has taken from us. God's not playing around and he's getting tired of waiting and holding off. What is it going to take for us to realize that he's the Almighty GOD and that he is powerful and that we don't have to lay back and just wait to die? We have eternity and a better home and we need to listen and stop ignoring his calling. There are so many people that are dying that don't even know him and they are going to hell because we are to afraid to witness. It's our duty as Christians to get those souls and win them, If I remember correctly we are sinners every day, but we have eternity, we have a way out. Jesus didn't just go to the cross just for us, HE went FOR ALL. and we need to stop blaming things on others. We need to take responsibility and be held accountable. Our nation is hurting right now and she's dying unless we stand up and fight for her. Jesus's return is so so so close and just because it's the New Year doesn't mean we repeat what we've been doing. I personally am done being angry, hurt, rejected. Because in the end God is the one I want to stand out for. I am tired of trying to be a person of the style or clique. I want to shine for Jesus, yes I know I may fall but I will get back up and continue. But if you want to sit back and watch this world die, Be my guest, BUT I WANT to fight for her and the ones that Jesus died for. You may say, WELL they don't deserve it, they chose to live that way, they chose to live the lives that they are living, YES you are right, BUT if we don't do anything to witness or be used or sit back and talk and judge then what right do we have? When Jesus died on the cross, he didn't say, well I will die for those that are really serious about me. NO he died saying FORGIVE THEM FATHER FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY ARE DOING. His grace is sufficient and none of us deserve it. But he loves us ALL. I just want to be used and I am tired of just sitting by and seeing this world go to hell, I want to win as many as I can for him, I am tired of keeping quiet. I am a spokesperson for Jesus and I am not going to let some stupid devil keep me quiet. Because GOD is going to use me.

Seasons in my Life

I don't know about you, but I have had many seasons in my life that are great and not so great, not so fun, but God said that they never would be, I just trust in Him that He knows what He's doing. I am a full time college student, also a wife, mother, friend and cashier....To think that I can do this, I am like are you nuts????LOL but God wouldn't have me go through this process, if He didn't think I could do it! I have been in school almost a month, and there isn't a day that doesn't go by that i am not thankful for Him and His presence in my days, Every time I wake up and get ready, I am tired and just want to sleep, I tell Jesus first and foremost, good morning, and I then let Him know He is welcomed in my day, and to give me strength and understanding to do what it is I need to do! I have a Pre Algebra test tomorrow, which I am really nervous about, Yes its a test, We all get tested in life, I studied, and still am studying, and I know because I have studied and am prepared that I will do fine, But in life its not that simple, you yes have to sometimes have to be prepared, but sometimes Jesus just pops some up on you and you have the choice to either Pray and ask Him to show you and direct you where you need to go, or you just pray that you pass, We all need to be prepared, either in a class setting or in life! Don't always assume that your going to get it the first time, trust me I know, I have had a mountain, that i have finally stepped over and not looking back, plenty of times! To many to count! I was told by a great friend that you vent, you talk about it till your healed! She's right! So in conclusion just don't ever doubt where you are, God has reasons why your going through the things your going through!

Disconnected

Lately I have been feeling so disconnected from people,from life and most of all from GOD, I don't know what it is, I just feel as though, i am going on auto pilot and I am just going with the motions, and all the while, i am just seeing things flash before me! GOD is this a test, are you taking me thru another season in my life? I know that it was coming and I knew things were starting to shift, i just didn't realize it was going to happen this quickly, Father I don't know whats going on, I feel as though I am not as close to as i would like to be, Is that because Your taking me thru another season in you? I don't want to be away from you, you have been my only #1 constant in my life, your the only one who has kept me safe and sane, Father with out you I can do nothing, Without you I am nothing, SO I ask, What is going on? Why Am I feeling this way? I am sorry if I had put things ahead of you, or allowed my life and busyness get in the way, I want to be closer to you, i want to have a one on one time with you, I miss our times together, I miss feeling you next to me, I miss your heart beating! I miss sensing you day in and day out! Please don't leave me, I know that you wouldn't you promised me that you wouldn't! Why am i feeling this sense of over whelming take place? I am so anxious and nervous about unneccessary things, And I can't for the life of me shake this feeling, So please I ask you to shed some light on this, Because I am tired of not knowing whats happening, I know that Its al in your hands, and that you have it in control, I am trusting you with all that I am and all that I have!!! Theres days that I don't even feel like me some days! Its like I am just going with the emotions, I don't want to live another day with out your security and knowing that your my life and my salvation! I miss you Jesus, Father GOD Daddy! you have helped me so much these past few weeks, you have stretched me and taught me that things are going to work out if i were to trust you, WEll I am trusting you all the way, WHY should I have to carry on alone, When you want to take my worries,frustrations, anxieties and just carry them off of me! I release this all to you this time and day! I don't want ot feel disconnected from you anymore! I want to sense you, feel you, Love hearing you talk to me! your my best friend! I don't know what I would do with out you! you get me, and understand me, I am tired of trying to prove to others I am worthy enough to be a part of there crowd and group, I know that you already have! I am no longer going to concern myself with people like that anymore, Its you and me all the way Jesus! My heart and soul cries out and belongs to you! Show me a way to love others the way you want me to, Show me love thru you the way you see me! I want to live for you and I want to die with self! I know its not easy and I know its painful, but GOD your pruning me and getting me ready! I love you Jesus, Your my sweet best friend! I will never be ashamed to proclaim it! you have done so much for us, Why would i? Hear my heart cry! Hear me tel you over and over that I can't live with out you, i can't breathe with out you, My soul is ever thirsty and hungry for more and more! I want my cup to fill and fill and runneth over! Please wrap your arms around me and never ever let me go!

CONFIDENCE

Why is it so hard to be confident? Why is it a struggle to know that when you give yourself to GOD that you will know that in and thru Him your more confident then when you were? Because we allow the enemy to steal that from us, Lately I have been regaining mine back from for so long by allowing GOD to guide me and show me in what areas I need to change and fix, i know its not been perfect, But GOD has been helping me regain that! I know this is odd, But I have been wanting to do my hair and makeup because that is what makes me more confident, I am happy with who GOD designed and created me to be, But I want to look even more confident and if that means doing my hair and make up, well Hey that is awesome, I know that GOD doesn't look at the outer appearance but he looks at the inner part of me, But He loves me anyway. I just started reading A Confident Heart, and its not going to be easy, but I know that thru that book GOD is going to start revealing things that I need to work on! He said this journey would never be easy, but when we have our eyes on HIM, its going to be less complicated, then doing it with out his guidance! Its awesome knowing that He holds my every tear and my every dream and desire, to know that when the time is right He in HIS time will reveal it to me! Its like I am going on auto pilot some days, but in all reality I am not, He doesn't want to reveal what HE's doing all at once, He did that once and lets just say I couldn't physically handle it, SO He's going to start slow! He is an amazing GOD, I am so honored that I serve a GOD like HIM and that He is the one I always tend to run to! Lately I have been concerned with what my friends thought about me or how I looked, or what group i was with, Well Not any longer, Like the verse says Romans 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the Pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. then you will be able to test and approve what GOd's will is his good,pleasing and perfect will. I am starting to understand that, and to see that I no longer need to worry myself or my life with this, I need to just focus on what He's going to be doing in me, and who the people I come in contact with, He has me on a new path and a new season, and I don't need people to fulfill me any longer, yes the fellowship is nice having that relationship is nice, BUT the fulfillment and the approval is all I need and I am looking to my Heavenly Father for that. Its not going to be easy every day I may fall off but I know what to do when that happens,Cry out to GOD and ask for his help, He is my Shelter in a storm, and He protects me from the things of this world!Trust has always been an issue, BUT I know that when I fully and I mean fully release things over to HIM he can take me on a higher level then I have ever been on!

Beautiful

I am so thankful for the Beauty that GOD has for me, I never lack in the things around me, The sky is like a canvas for Him to paint on, Everytime I look in the sky I am always amazed at how wonderful HE is, I think He just paints the sky just for me! I am just amazed how Much HE really really loves me, It took me walking away from a friendship to realize that! I love that I can open HIS word and just getting a piece of him, I can be closer to HIS heart that way, His love letter for me is awesome! The cares of this world and the people never stack up to what GOD is. He wants me, and not my abilities and not my talents, HE wants ME! As I am sitting here Pondering things, He just wants me to have an open and receiving heart for HIS unfailing LOVE, SOMETIMES I wonder what HE's doing, but that isn't for me to worry or concern myself, but to trust the process is a good thing! And to enjoy the ride! I look back on where I have been and where I was, and I can't believe that thru all that GOD is still pulling me thru, I am not done with this race, and I am continuesly trusting in HIM to get me thru! ITS not been an easy one, I have to had let some friendships go because that season was over, and I am in a new season! I am not hurt anymore or angry, just relieved that I don't have to struggle with trying to make them happy!That I can move forward in this thing called Life and be continueing my healing! 2Corinthians 3:17 Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is Freedom! I am choosing to be free from all things in my life, I am choosing to let things go, I am choosing to Grow UP in GOD and move on! I am not going to be looking back! I believe that HE has something amazing for me, I am trusting that HE knows what he's doing! Lord My heart is open and ready, so do what you may in me! I am yours!!!!