Sacrifices

Lord is this what you felt like when you sacrificed yourself for me and others? Because its hurting me so badly, Why does this hurt so much? What is your trying to do in me? I just want to be one with you, i want to have a heart more like yours, I don't want to focus on the things around me that is taking me from you, I want to live for you, i want to remain in your arms and under your will, I don't want the things of this world to take from me what you have instilled in me, I want to know that my desires you have instilled in me are in your care, I don't want to deal with it anymore, i want to hand it over to you, Knowing that you know what your doing, HELP ME TO TRUST!!! not only you, but others, I want that so bad, I want my friendships to feel secure and not have anything to worry about. I want to know that those you put in my life are there as an encourager and not a downer I want to be free from this, I don't want to focus on the things I can't control, i want to hand them over to you, i want my life to be a reflection of who you are and what your doing in my life. I want to show others that I can give things over for you, that I can have my whole heart open to you, and that your will for me is good, that My will isn't for me, but its what you have in store for me, I want to feel peaceful and have a sense of joy and happiness! i want to be fully dependant on your love and mercy for me! i love that your always there, when I HAVE NO ONE ELSE that I can always turn to you! and you haven't left me for one sec!

The power of Your love, by Misty Edwards

God you are Great

How Great are you Oh Father, God Your greater then the earthly things, your greater then the materialistic things, I give you all of me and I am not holding nothing back, I love your faithfulness towards me and I love that you love me unconditionally, your definately worthy of my praise, I can't contain the love i have for you, I can't even begin to express how Much I love you. I can't even fathom the multitude of your love for me, Your name is Majestic, Your name is Jehovah Jireh, my provider, Your my protector my lover, My best friend, Your worthy of all i am, I am so thankful that you take me as I am, I am so thankful that you are working on me and beginning a new change in me, Your surrounding me even now, I am so thankful for being able to just sit at your throne and just bask in your presence, I just want to stay here, I don't want to move, I just want to look in those beautiful eyes and hear that heart beat, I just want to be poured out on, GOD i just want you and nothing else, I just want a dumping of a heaping of your annointing I don't know what your doing in me, BUT its like i just feel content, I don't want to be content I want to be more then content i want all and more and more, Father, Set me on fire, set my heart ablaze for you!

Arms Wide Open - Misty Edwards

Jesus Culture Consumed - Oh Lord You´re Beautiful

Misty Edwards - You won't relent

"my soul longs for you" misty edwards

Emotions

So Today My emotions got the best of me, But in the middle of my feelings i did apologize i listened to your voice and backed down, I am sorry Father for not showing you and allowing my anger and frustration seep through, But thank you in all that you spoke to me to say I am sorry and to know that right away to check my spirit with you, Lord I don't want to ever let that happen again, I know that there are things that are going to trigger my emotions, GOD i need your help in controling that, I give it to you, I open my hands and wave it into the air and i leave it with you, Thank You Father for a great day with our friends, and Micah, I know that it was not to what I wanted, but it was perfect i guess for me, GIve me strength tomorrow, help me to sleep tonight, Protect us, Send down your guardian angels to protect us, and watch over us, And to also watch over dale and keep him safe, I pray Father that tomorrow will be full of new mercies and grace, Thanks for always giving me 2nd chances and for forgiven me where I feel inadequate or feel like I am the only one at times that makes mistakes, I love you. Be with my friendships in my life, Be with my conversations with people, Let my words be of encouragement and love, and not gossip. I love you!

Motherhood

God thank you for giving me Micah, I know there are times where things are challenging but I love him, lately its been hard, I feel as though I am failing him, I feel as though I am screaming for help and encouragement and the only person that hears me is you, I don't like feeling like i am the one who is needing to be fixed, But I know that in order for there to be peace and serenity, it needs to happen, So Father i know you entrusted him in my care, i know you wouldn't give me something I can't handle, So father through these trying years I ask Father that you would just equip me with the right tools and things I need to do, to become a better Mother, I know its in me to do that, When he has down days i want to shut myself off from him, I want to just push him away, But I know that is not what you want from me, I know I make mistakes and I am not perfect, I know that if every mistake you would do that, I wouldn't be able to function or exist, So GOD please I ask and pray that you would just help me to not do that, And when he makes mistakes help me to love him through that, and Just be there to help guide and instruct him with love and just show him you, I am sorry for hurting him, I am sorry for allowing my flesh and physical aspect get in the way of the love you want me to have for him, I pray Father you would just give me this ultimate peace to be the Mother you have called me to be, I know that I can, give me the courage and the strength to get through this..I want my heart to be open and willing to do any changing that needs to take place! Forgive me father for allowing my selfishness to get in the way, for allowing my desires and not yours for me, Help me GOD to learn to lean and trust in you all the days of my life and I want to hand my control back to you! Thank You GOD for listening and loving me, and not pushing me away but loving me even more!