God's Grace

I know that God is taking me on a New Journey, but sometimes I wonder if I am to step aside certain situations or what He's wanting me to do, I know its awesome, Each day is a new day, I know His mercies are new every day, I know that I am learning each step of the way, Lately I have been pulling myself away from certain people, Not sure what is going on, But I know that GOD does, i know there are things He is trying to work out in me, I know that in order for me to grow, He wants me to step aside and do the work He needs to do, BUT why is it so hard to let him? When He is the master of all things! So Why is it so Hard for me to trust in Him? I know in my heart that some things are changing, i sense things, Its all so overwhelmingly fast, But I know that the outcome is going to be AMAZING, But for now I guess I am to just ride the wave and just enjoy the ride! I need His Grace to just get through every day, I have no idea sometimes on what I am doing half the time, but i guess thats the wonder of it all! That He knows, And that He is carrying me day by day to where I am supposed to go! My heart is so heavy and I want to cry, but no tears! Father what are you doing to me on the inside! I was reading in the bible that I am on a race and that there are earthly prizes, But my prize will last me forever, and that is my Heavenly Prize, I know I am not here to please people only My GOD, so Why am I so wanting to please people, Why I always looking for acceptance, When He's already accepted me already the day He sent His son to the cross for me? SO Father Please help not to focus on being a people pleaser but being Jesus Pleaser! Lord tomorrow when I rise up, I pray that you will just guide me, and that you will show me how to live my every day life for you! I don't want to hinder your progress in me! I hand it all over to you, Teach and show me Forgiveness to those who have hurt me or who have brought any offenses to me, But also help to protect myself but in love from those who have hurt me! I Peter 5:8 Be self controlled and alert, your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for some one to devour, Resist him standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are under going the same kind of sufferings! 2 Timothy 4:7 I have fought the good fight I have finished the race I have Kept THE FAITH. now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day and only to me, but also to all who longed for his appearing! God i have fought a fight, But I know this race isn't finished, i don't want to give up, i want to keep fighting until i can't fight no more! Father give me strength in this battle to get to my goal and my prize! I am asking for you Grace and Mercy I know that I don't deserve, Each new day has its challenges, So I am asking for you help! i am asking for Patience,self control and mercy and love to those that I feel that don't deserve it, but I want to love like you do for me!